Battlefield Of The Mind

I have this inner desire for self satisfaction that sometimes screams to be heard 

but is often silenced. 

Lurking shadows of distant clouds, seemingly still, hover over this neighborhood

I stare out my window, trying to connect the disconnectedness of experiences and freedoms that I no longer have the luxury of accessing. 

It's this frightful reality, freezing my body, as my eyes stay fixed on an object no longer in focus, 

all sounds become noise,

thoughts are moving hastily, spiking as they beat heavily upon my heart, 

and then, just as soon as the haze had struck, 

the desire flatlines. 

Voiceless prayers I now project, 

exclaiming aloud, as self loses another battle to the mind.